Its Just Like That

So God has been showing me a lot lately. I discovered this week, that i know how to hold my tongue better than i did a year ago. I also found that in my endless admiration of the opposite sex that i feel i am in a good place, and that singleness is alright with me (which although i used to say that, i used to say a lot of other things i didn't mean as well, oh well..)

However this summer, i found that my understanding of Gods provision in my life has grown to be something greater than i had ever expected it to be. When I lived in San Diego there was a year or two where I didn't really have a job and I refused to get one because it would mean it would limit my ability to do ministry. During that time God gave me money through odd jobs and even generous giving. It was amazing and i haven't forgotten it. Whenever i make decisions, while money and finances are involved in the decision, they are not the hinge on which my choices are made.

The reason why i say that my understanding of Gods provision has grown is that, the last two months have had multiple difficulties, both financial and event oriented, which have lead me to pray out to God saying, "if this is gonna work, you are gonna have to do something!" and for me, that is it, sometimes i get a little stressed, but once i said that i knew it was over.

The situations have left me going through all the options and all the possible things I could do to get them taken care of and i kept coming up empty handed. I was completely unable to provide for myself. SO i knew it had to be God who would do the providing. its just like that. So simple to say, but took years to grasp.